Pregnancy blog: Telling my husband

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Flashback to Saturday August 5, 2017:

It was a gorgeous summer morning and the sun was already shining bright when I woke up. I had an awful night. I couldn’t sleep because of horrible cramping and I woke up still cramping. I thought I should just take a pregnancy test and force myself to accept it, these were period cramps. Obviously, I hoped it would be positive, but logically I knew it wouldn’t be. My doctor had said I already ovulated and was just waiting for my period. Nevertheless, I took the test and went to make some coffee, leaving the test on the counter. I wasn’t anxious about the test. I knew it would be nothing. I had some coffee and went to confirm the result. I glanced at the test and my heart pounded. “PREGNANT” More than two years of consistently negative results faded away instantly. I had a teeny tiny baby inside me. OH MY GOD!!!!

I am pregnant

After 2 years and 2 months, we are finally expecting our first baby!

 

I cried. I was shaking and my heart continued to beat out of my chest. I couldn’t think of anything except how much I needed Alex to come home from work! Unfortunately, he was working an event all day with his co-workers who had flown in from all over the country. He was unreachable…all day.

 

I had dreamed of how I would tell him when it finally happened. I watched countless YouTube videos of people telling their husbands and families and cried along with them as they jumped for joy. I had just never really decided on how I would actually tell him, I guess I assumed we would take the test together and we would just find out at the same time. So now to keep my sanity I had to make a plan. The only thought in my head was Target. Here was the plan, Target would guide me and show me what to do.

 

I walked around, looking in the baby section, then picture frames and crafts. I passed by the books. Bingo. This was it. I would find our favorite childhood books and then figure out how I wanted to arrange things later. I bought four books. I also picked up a nautical baby blanket. When we first started trying, I bought a onesie that I kept secret and I decided to use that to tell him too.

 

Alex was working at an event all day, but I had been able to text with him a bit and tried to play it cool. I casually asked when he would be home, he thought maybe he would go hit some golf balls after the event with his co-worker that was staying with us. Being the cool wife that I am, I said “Yeah, that sounds like fun, can you just stop by the house first?” I needed him to understand telepathically that he needed to come home and stop trying to go golfing! So let’s be real, I didn’t really play it cool at all. I texted him a lot, like excessively, and laid it on thick that I needed him to be home as soon as possible. I usually try to not bother him and just do my own thing when he’s at events, but I couldn’t handle not telling my best friend this news! He later told me that he had no idea why I was being so needy and annoying!

 

Finally, he texted that he was heading home! I set up the books, blanket and onesie on the kitchen table along with the two positive pregnancy tests I’d taken and I waited. I had already been waiting all day for him to get home so by this point I was so frantic and my emotions were all over the place. I heard the garage door open, I started shaking. Alex’s co-worker, who was going to be staying with us walked in first, I super casually greeted him and told him where the guest room was, then Al came in. Even now, my stomach is turning with excitement as I recall this moment. I asked him to come to the kitchen, he glanced at the baby stuff and asked me how I was doing. HELLO, ACTUALLY LOOK AT WHAT IS ON THE TABLE!!!!!!

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He looked again and stopped, he said “What is this?”, he picked up a test and stared at it then quickly looked at me. By this time his co-worker had joined us and was in shock too! I had to literally say “I’m pregnant” before I think he got it. The next few minutes are kind of a blur, we were happy and he was in shock, very similar to my reaction hours before.

 

We took some time just us two and called Al’s brother and my best friend. We decided to go tell our parents right away too. Everyone was surprised, everyone was happy and we received so much love from our people.

 

This was such a great and special moment in our lives and I am so excited to enjoy so many more moments with my little family!

 

Trying to conceive part 7

PCOS blog

Written August 8, 2017

So much has happened since I last blogged! I completed two days of the IVF process when my insurance came back and essentially said “Nope, you cannot skip IUI, we will not cover you.” To say it kindly, I was frustrated, but I felt like, of course something like this would happen to us.

My doctor called our insurance and tried to appeal their decision, but had no luck. We decided to do just do one month of IUI to show the insurance that it won’t work because I don’t ovulate and then we can appeal again.

After 4 weeks of blood work, IUI shots and ultrasounds we still saw no egg growth. On my cycle day 24 I had my last ultrasound. We found one egg that had grown to the smallest measurable size, 11mm. I was over the moon! My eggs could grow, they could do what I needed them to do. I felt like this was the start of me getting pregnant! My doctor, however, thought the egg was still too small and it was too late in my cycle for it to grow much more. We decided to stop medications for this cycle and see if the egg would ovulate and then give me a period. That would give us some evidence when we talk to the insurance for our appeal.

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So much blood work, my arms started to bruise.

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A couple shots a day got to be so exhausting.

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Alex came to the majority of my ultrasounds and was such a great support with all the frustrating news I continued to get.

A few days later, a blood test showed that I did in fact ovulate. I was so happy! My body did something it was supposed to do! In two years of negatives I had to find even the smallest of positives to keep me sane.

Alex was in Detroit for work at the time and thought maybe he would need to come home to fertilize my newly ovulated egg. Nope, we were letting this cycle pass. Alex later told me that while he was in Detroit our doctor called him and said he tried to appeal the insurance again and they were still not budging.

A few days passed and he came home, it was a nice reunion (if you know what I mean) and it was good to have him back. He left to go back to Detroit for another week.

About a week after Alex got home I started feeling awful. My first real period was finally happening and let me tell you, women are warriors! It was horrible pain in my stomach and my back. I was at work and felt like I was going to pass out from the pain.

For a few days I had this awful pain coming and going, but still no period. When I was on medication to get a period it was so easy, one day of slight cramping followed by three days of period and then done. It’s usually a breeze, and this was not a breeze. It was horrible pain.

After being in so much pain for three days I felt like maybe I should take a pregnancy test to get that thought out of my head, I have wanted this so much and my brain wouldn’t let me move on from the small possibility that I was pregnant.

August 5, 2017 I took a pregnancy test and thought nothing of it, but it was positive.

 

I am pregnant!

 

I am pregnant

After 2 years and 2 months, we are finally expecting our first baby!